Day 17: I am not normal

I have passed the two week! Yay! I have my 2 week check up with my surgeon two days ago and he said everything is going well. No infection so that's a plus. I am still very swollen, so much to the point where I am actually biting into my cheeks because they are still so big. There isn't much to do about it other than wait for the swelling to go down but I have feeling in my cheeks so it hurts like a bitch constantly. I no longer have the super raw feeling anymore so that's a plus. My pain is more of a sharp stabbing or aching now. I'm getting more and more "twitching" of my muscles happening which really hurts and then I must be getting feeling back in my gums/teeth because they just hurt like the dickens. Still taking my oxy as needed. My surgeon wants to see me in 2 weeks and splint will be out in 4 more weeks. I've actually been feeling really good because I can talk now, obviously it's not like my normal talking but people can understand me and there are days when I don't even have to take a nap! That being said, today taught me that i am far from being back to normal. My fiancé and I went to a hotel to celebrate my sister's 11 birthday. I didn't swim, just hung out in the hot tub and played some games. At 7pm I was in so much pain that I needed my oxy and I'm just drained. It was a long day. So as much as I would love to think that I'm back to being me, I most definitely am not. I'm doing better, slowly, day by day but I am no where near being 100 percent. I would say I'm running at about 50 percent right now but each week gets better. This time last week I couldn't talk at all and was doing all liquid medicine and now I can somewhat talk and take pills. I think the recovery is just going to take some time. I'm not the most patient person, especially with myself, so the slow healing is really hard for me. I'm ready to throw myself back into my old life but my body cannot handle it and today was a true test of that. I just have to remind myself that in the end, I will be back to myself and I will be even better with new and improved jaws!